Week 4

I have now started to develop my character on stage by reacting to things that happen on stage the way that Holly would act. For example during act 2 scene 4 she is having breakfast with Mark and he says "Thank Gob you're alive, I thought I'd actually fucked you to death." During this scene I act disgusted that Mark would use such language and it reminds Holly of why she doesn't want to sleep with him anymore and how much of a douche he actually is. When blocking this scene we decided to get Mark to come across in a playful way but for Holly to still be a bit scared of Mark and to act surprised and disgusted by all of the inappropriate things he says to her. I do need to work on doing big expressions to show that Holly doesn't like it for the audience to understand what's going on and how she feel's about it. During this scene Mark pays Holly money so I need to show clearly how Holly feels about this. I feel as Holly doesn't want to do it but she feels forced to as she needs the money. I am still yet to understand why Mark choose to do this in the first place with Holly so I will need to talk to Milo to find the reason behind it all and how they might of met.

I am still experimenting with Holly emotionally because I have to think of previous things in order to understand why Holly is sleeping with Mark to know how she is actually thinking about it. I'm also thinking of how she is beginning to feel now she is helping John. I feel as she is happy about it because it seems as she's not mucking about anymore and trying to actually make something of herself and not be someone who just sleeps with men for money. With Holly vocally I'm starting to have her voice quite raised and harsh during the first act apart from when she is with her Gran because I think she'll speak in a nice, calm tone as I feel that she get's on with her Gran really well. Then as the play carry's on I think she'll start to show her fear and anger towards Mark when she see's him. For example in Act 2 scene 11 she confesses that she doesn't like sleeping with Mark and that she is in fact scared of him "What we do, I don't like it", "I was scared". Then when is comes to Act 4 she is able to stand up to him more "Mark you're a bastard. You say it yourself". She starts to overcome everything in order to help her move past it all and move on to what she really wants to do.  

I have now settled on a white shirt, black leggings, black leather jacket and white converses for the outfit of Holly but then hopefully change into a dress and black ankle boots for when she goes out clubbing. For me to understand Holly more I started to think about what could of happened before each scene and before the play. For example I know she wants to turn her life around because the first time she's on stage speaking she on the phone talking about who she's going to try out this alpha course and see if it good for her. During the alpha course she talks about how she has trouble believing in God "I have trouble believing in any of it. Why would God let me be born into a fucked up family with no money and a shit life". I think that's why she wants to start believing in something to help her move forward in life and start to make the right life decisions.

 For next week I will contribute to at least one thing when blocking scenes, learn the rest of my lines and go over the ones I already know. Go over the blocking for all of the scenes we've done in order for me to remember. I think I should talk to the characters I interact with a lot like John and Mark to see their prospective of Holly. My goal is to have a full understanding of Holly and know all of my lines before I go back after half term.